Tru Confession

I love that show(tru confession) it's so touching! I mean it shows a girl and her brother and they are twins but her brother has mental illness acted by Shia labeuof. It's abit of a tear jerker and stuff. I love it. :)Today i decide to clean my room...not that i usually don't clean my room. I fund some books i dun need them and anymore and decide to give them away. I HATE giving or throwing stuff away! It's like throwing ur past. I mean when i look through my primary books. It's like i recall my childhood. I'm really sensitive when it comes to childoohds or my past cuz it's something i can't never take back...so i'm always looking at myself wishing that idun have to grow up. I want to stay 6 or 5 and idun want to face the world just yet. That's why i sometimes to crazy things and taking risks cuz i can never do it if i dun take the chance. LIfe gives you chances dun let it go..before it's too late.That's why sometimes i just close one eye when i decide to do something people may think it's stupid. i think that if u dun do it now...u won't have another shot so someitmes taking risk are good(depends on the situation guys) Gosh i'm starving right now..think i'll go eat my dinner now. TTFN!!;)

Parents~...

I can never understand my parents and the feeling is mutual for them. I dun think in my family we understand what we're going through..lifes hard and everybody have different opinion. No one is perfect. We go through life difficulties and we choose whether to stand up again everytime we fall. Today i had a VERy rough day. I'm so freaking( i wish i could say the F word) tired. My mom scolded me for skipping tution even i tried my best to not skipped it cuz I.HAD.NO.CHOICE. It's not my fault ok? My moral teacher needed my help..but before i touch that part i actually took the risk by staying back for my english on wheels club. Teaching primary students is HARD..Espectially those who hate u and u hate them. Anyway, after my section i was planning to go straight home. I had too cuz my mom will cut me up if i'm late but eventually she had the chance.Anyway, i was on my way home but then my moral teacher came to me and begged me to help her cuz she was so tight up and i couldn't refuse( what was i thinking?) so i said sure. She promise to send me to tution as soon as the job was over but then later on i end up going home at 6.30 ( so much for going to tution) and that's when my mom came and yelled at me for being a slacker. Yeah well so what if i am? I'm not saying i am but if i AM a slacker or a drug dealer who is she to judge me when she too could not judge herself? She DOES NOT KNOW ME TOO WELL to start yelling at me. AS a mother you should know what sort of a person i am and accept and respect who i ought to be. I'm not a parent yet so i can't say more than that when or IF i am i would never be like HER. I'm not trying to put dirt to my mom's character but you see...i might be a better person. I mean if i have a child i would or will understand what's happening to his/her life CUZ i was once a teen. 'Saling memahami antara anggota keluarga' that's something my parents+family should have or learn. I dunno..once i'm all grown up..let's see how things goes..if this is how they are going to threat me then i WILL break my connection with them. What i'm typing her is just words..but if ur in my place u'll knw how i feel. Many people may use this phrase more than once but any teen goes through what i been i knw what they're feeling. i better appologize to my friends for acting such a jerk today cuz i was in a bad mood for skipping tution and 1 kind of took it out on them. THis is what i'm posting now so just wait till i post another u knw...post.

Argh..major headaches...

S-so tired! Woke up 5.30, go to school at 6.45 survive 3 periods of ADD MATHS! Came home at 4.30 went to tution at 5 came home and suffer a mojor headache...Argh! *rips brain off* I wish i could lead my life just like my puppy..all he does is sleep, eat and play.It's so much easier cuz all u hve to do is worried about the meals ur getting other than that sleeeeeeeeepp!Geez...i'm figuring out what course i should take right after SPM..it's like i can't think. I like accounts but i kept asking myself..does this course makes me intrested to become one(accountant). Urgh! i'm soo mess up i'm worried EVERYDAY and EVERYTIME! I stress myself out so much. I kept thinking i NEED to be good, better, good enough to be the same level as those smart people. It's so freaking hard!! When u look at those children playing in the park..do u EVER wish ur were in thier shoes? I knw i do. Avoid the reality and concertrate on being a kid..having fun and go through childish times.It's like no one can accuse of being a kid and people gets it. If ur a kid u get laid off easily. Being all spoil and stuff ( well for some people)xD if i hve the power to turn back time..i'll go back the time i was like 6....so much easier...yikes i better go...too tired now..think i'll get so shut eye.:D